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Love As I Know It

Published on 11 Jan 2018 / by: Mel

Before anything else, I would like you to watch this clip first. 

"You love those to whom you give. If I give something to you, I've invested myself to you. True love is a love of giving, not a love of receiving." Abraham Twerski. 

In the search of a life partner, this once in a lifetime deal, I am a chicken. I'm sure that many can relate. You got your heart broken once or twice, then this heart of ours suddenly decided to stop trying. I, then, play it safe. I never show any interests in men, if they don't show it to me first. I became this "heartless bitch", as my friend would call me, because I'd stopped caring. I restrained myself from expressing how I feel. I always thought that if I showed any affections first, I would be the fool. 

 

 

This week, I realized that I have been denying myself the one thing that makes humans beautiful: to feel. 

I can't deny it any longer. I experience a thousand kinds of emotions and I won't deny myself of them anymore. I would let myself to love again, even when it doesn't work out the way I want. I would let myself be angry again and not fall into the trap of apathy. I would let myself to feel happiness, joy, sadness, pain, anger, depression, anxiety, hope, love, jealousy, insecurities, confidence, and many more.

I would feel, unapologetically


 

Lay with me and tell me your stories
Of the Magical Creatures 
And the Beast
 
Show me your shields
Cut me thin with your swords
Let me bleed, the way you bleed
 
Show me your sins
I'll show you mine
Love so endless and abound
 
We'll rip the picket fences apart, 
the white brick castles
We'll tear Conformity and the Monarch down
 
You and I
Oh, you and I
We'll burn this town to the ground
 
-MS
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