Before anything else, I would like you to watch this clip first.
"You love those to whom you give. If I give something to you, I've invested myself to you. True love is a love of giving, not a love of receiving." Abraham Twerski.
In the search of a life partner, this once in a lifetime deal, I am a chicken. I'm sure that many can relate. You got your heart broken once or twice, then this heart of ours suddenly decided to stop trying. I, then, play it safe. I never show any interests in men, if they don't show it to me first. I became this "heartless bitch", as my friend would call me, because I'd stopped caring. I restrained myself from expressing how I feel. I always thought that if I showed any affections first, I would be the fool.
This week, I realized that I have been denying myself the one thing that makes humans beautiful: to feel.
I can't deny it any longer. I experience a thousand kinds of emotions and I won't deny myself of them anymore. I would let myself to love again, even when it doesn't work out the way I want. I would let myself be angry again and not fall into the trap of apathy. I would let myself to feel happiness, joy, sadness, pain, anger, depression, anxiety, hope, love, jealousy, insecurities, confidence, and many more.
I would feel, unapologetically.